The Jubber Journal

sharing snippets in random sequence from my life

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Difficulty Being Understood

Recently I made a personal decision to ease off on the amount of time being spent on Facebook. Crazy huh?

It’s an amazing conduit for staying in touch with loved ones, family and friends, and with each passing day the social vibe snakes across cyberspace ever changing and intruding the divide we know called reality and millions of pixels that come to life when we turn the harddrive on. What has begun to concern me is nothing new, and for the most part without venturing across the line where truth and conspiracy are separated. My decision to ease off on Facebook primarily encompasses the ever dwindling size of the globe through technology, and the undertones surrounding the very obvious moves toward the end times – the subliminal encroaching on our freedoms and liberty and oblivious information gathering happening right in front of us all. This is a whole can of worms for another entry…but for those of you in the ‘know’ will attest to the reality and strategy of control and ushering in of the system previous generations spoke of…we are living in those days!

I knew going into this realm of journaling snippets from my life, that I would sometimes be faced with a burning sense of urgency to share from deep within my heart what I believe and perceive as urgency to listen, to pay attention, to discern and to act upon – to make myself vulnerable and in humility share with confidence in the hope that if it were possible; even one single soul would respond.

Have you ever met someone who in conversation will say “the Lord SPOKE to me, I heard Him clear as day…”? I have never heard the Lord audibly – not sure if I would survive the experience, and it would concern me why of the 7 billion people on the planet He would single me out to speak to! So, for me, I can say with assurance that I hear the Lord’s voice, not audibly, but through His word, through brothers and sisters, through situations and circumstance that turn my attention to seek Him – A short while ago, I was reading through scripture and in that moment I believe the Lord spoke to me.

*The only caveat I place solely on myself is that if I share something that is biblically unsound, slanted from the truth, or questionable, I humbly submit to the Lord and open my life to correction.

Amos 8v11-12 “The days are coming,” declares the Sovereign Lord, “when I will send a famine through the land – not a famine of food or thirst for water, but a famine of hearing the words of the Lord. Men will stagger from sea to sea and wander from north to east, searching for the word of the Lord but they will not find it.”

It is not possible for any one of us to reach the entire world, to sound the alarm, to bring a warning, but at the same time, we all have some degree of influence within our own circles of trust. If we take head and listen to what the Lord declares today, and take His word to heart, and as in the protocol of a ‘may-day’ situation in flight 33000 feet above the ground, place that mask over our face and begin breathing air, start reaching out and help them with a sense of urgency. Who are ‘them’? Fill in the blanks…them could be your best friend, coworker, parent, sibling, boss or the fellow standing behind you in line for a cup of coffee.

That oxygen mask is His forgiveness. We can only achieve right standing with Christ when we humble ourselves, unzip our lives, and fall on “THE” Rock we know to be Jesus Christ, before as we are warned in scripture that rock crushes us. (Matt. 21v44 He who falls on this stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed.)

The days Amos spoke of in the Old Testament, those days are here friends. We must earnestly turn to the Author of life, time is short, look at the state of the world today – sin, corruption, wickedness and the selfishness of man is beyond our understanding. Every possible calamity known to man for the past few years have been sweeping across continents, sickness, disease, wars and rumors of wars, dissent, greed and every other evil continues to flourish. The world is groaning…time is short, that famine Amos speaks of is sweeping the world, and it’s sweep has begun in the church. We ought to fall on our knees and cry out to Him for mercy on those who rule and reign in man made structures and divert the truth in exchange for the riches of this world masked under the pretense of falsely proclaiming a hope that doesn’t deliver to the seeker. We can no longer hold fast the promise that once saved always saved (I will take flack for this statement no doubt) but we must take heed to Rev. 2v21-22 “I have given her time to repent of her immorality, but she is unwilling. So I will cast her on a bed of suffering, and I will make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely, unless they repent of her ways.”

Who do we suppose this warning is directed to? Verse 20 reveals – “Nevertheless, I have this against you: You tolerate that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess. By her teaching she misleads my servants into sexual immorality and the eating of food sacrificed to idols.” The very ones that purport to be led by the Spirit, to be proclaiming the ‘truth’, yet when confronted escape behind armor bearers who are equally misled. It’s this very famine that in the midst of sin and wickedness will continue to sweep across the globe starting within the confines of the church.

It’s for this very reason I don’t take this word lightly, and yet with cautious fear must begin to sound the alarm, to put the word out there, and to reach out to those in my circle of influence, if even one soul, to turn while there is time, while His grace and mercy abounds, before His presence lifts and the curtain begins to close…we all have a destiny, this is just a journey, the time to choose which path you will travel on must begin today, time is of the essence – that famine is upon us and we must humble ourselves in His presence, make right, and make good so that our destiny is secure in Christ, not wavering, but steadfast in the knowledge of what is happening around us, knowing that the end is near, and because of the confession of our faith, we know we are firmly planted in His kingdom, and that He holds each of us in the palm of His hand – it’s a beautiful place, secure and protected, free and comforted…

Remember this day, the word of Lord proclaims a day that is coming, and with it a famine, not of food or thirst for water, but a famine of His word, come with me, join me, let us go into the house of the Lord together, choose today the path that will lead you to eternal life in His presence.

My open invitation to you – yes YOU – I want you to share in eternal life with all the saints, this is a beautiful free gift, bought and paid for, heed this call, and come home. He says He will not strive with mankind forever…

If you have been challenged I invite you to write me, allow me to partner with you, let’s find Jesus together, He is knocking at the door of your heart…don’t be found in that place where the famine sweeps across your soul and you find yourself in that moment of reality where change is no longer possible.

Please…head the word of the Lord today!


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Raising Eyebrows

The world is in a precarious position. I don’t think it takes rocket science to figure out that chaos is abounding, disorder is the order of the day and mankind is oblivious to the collision course we are on with certain destiny.

Pretty deep opening statement; but true nonetheless.

A few years ago on Easter Sunday during the meeting, we watched a video clip encompassing the life and death of Jesus Christ. It was one of those 3 minute clips that sent shivers down your spine, and raised the hair on your arms. I began surfing through Youtube desperately trying to find it without success. But I came across a clip that struck a chord with me and wanted to share it with you.

Don’t get me wrong. I am pretty certain this post will draw negative feedback from my peers, but all the same, if truth be told, the church today is found lacking in her authenticity to be as effective, if not more so than the former church during not only the time when Christ walked the earth, but after his ascension and outpouring of the Holy Spirit.

There has to be more; something I have always stood by and believed is the greater impact any of us can have is to be authentic in our conviction and service to the Lord around those of our family, friends and loved ones…that infamous “circle of influence”. To be authentic, know who we are, what our purpose is and how best to distinguish between right and wrong, and not shy away from proclaiming our standard, the standard by which we were called through Christ’s death on the cross, to live in such a way that we impact, influence and embrace changed lives around us.

Seems a daunting and unrealistic task. But is it really? I don’t think so. If we personalize this post, then it might make better sense. For example; if I were to start standing up for the very reason why I am a Christian, why I believe what I believe, and don’t back down when confronted on issues of faith from within my “circle of influence” perhaps I would have one of two effects. Either I would drive people out of that circle, or draw them closer. It means for the most part stepping out of my comfort zone, where it has become far easier to keep quiet, to smile politely, to look the other way, to back down from speaking the truth, to avoid judging another, and basically to just keep the peace! And that is how we have become insignificant to a large extent. What if I had the courage to speak up, to share my conviction, to be ready in and out of season as it were, to give an account as to why I believe in Christ as my personal Lord and Savior, to live an authentically replicate life of Christ not only in what I say but in what I do…don’t you think that would have an effect let alone an impact on the lives I come into contact with?

Could the same not be true of you? We need a challenge. We must somehow return to the place where we are not ashamed of the gospel, neither do we back down for the sake of keeping the status quo. We live in times that could certainly see the return of an amazing revival, and it starts with you and me, in our every day lives, at the store, the office and workplace, the gym, the beach, the trail, parking lot…the possibilities and opportunities are endless in as much as starting to make a difference, seizing every possible opportunity to be an authentic follower of the Lord, and to let our proverbial lights ‘shine’.

As I listened to the above clip, I found myself agreeing 100% with the narrator, guilty of the same, and desirous of change. Imagine what an impact the modern-day church would have if we all began in the smallest ways to make positive changes around us, that fragrance would be contagious and people would begin to want and desire for the same change to take place in their lives, and the church once again would become effective.

Is it possible? YES! But not until we see the reality and state of our own hearts can any meaningful change take place. I find myself lacking, being in want of change, and know that as we celebrate Easter this weekend, there is room at the cross. Yes Jesus is risen, not only is He seated at the right hand of the Father, but He has made it possible for each of us to welcome Him into our daily lives through the gift of the Holy Spirit…and He is the conduit that will bring revival back to our hearts, our families, loved ones, communities and nations at large.

We have the ability to change, to turn the world upside down…what are we waiting for?


Empty Buildings

Time has literally escaped from under my feet! I have been meaning to update the Journal for a while, and truthfully just haven’t got around to it.

Today seems a good day for me to take a moment to play ‘catch-up’, and although much has been happening in the wake of 2011 I really wanted to share something that caught my attention as I was driving back from the store today.

I figured out that doing life is not rocket science! This may come as a shock to many, but we really have all the necessary tools at our disposal to make the best of every God given day that we are blessed with.

Along South Rancho Santa Fe, in Vista, I noticed an abundance of empty business premises. I thought to myself, “at some time there used to be a business in there. People walking in and out, doing business, selling and buying products and today, these are just shells collecting dust, without the hope any time soon of occupants taking up residence to trade.”

Two sides to the story here; yes the economy is not in good shape. But what if we looked beyond our natural limitations and saw these empty buildings as human vessels? Geez Vic, what are you talking about…?

John 14v1-4 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Interesting scripture! I looked at these empty buildings, with dirty windows, un-kept parking lots, and dirty interiors, filled with rubble. And thought to myself…”metaphorically, this is what man’s heart looks like. Out in the public eye, doing life as best as he can. But on the inside, full of nothing. Empty. Dirty. Watching everyone go by every day, and wondering perhaps ‘when will someone take the time to stop, check on me, and fill me with something…give me a hope, and a future’…

The scripture above tells me that where Christ is at this moment in time, is a place that He is working on constantly to perfect for the arrival of His saints. A place filled with glory and peace, majesty and eternal life. What if it were remotely possible that Christ’s intention for us that have Him living in our lives, is to reflect that life in such a way that we can impact and change the course of another’s life simply by stopping once in a while, to check in on them, make sure they are doing ok, ensure they have someone that loves and cares for them, and above all, willing to invest in their lives in the same way as renovating an office, home or room?

Christ took the time for me to send someone across my path, when at that time my life was empty, dirty, in need of a complete remodel. Through that investment my life changed. What an impact we could have if we had that desire in our lives to share the hope and future we have with Christ in the lives of others who have no hope, no future and are in desperate need of that connection.

Not only is the Lord preparing a room, or mansion or place for each of us in heaven, there is a flip side to the emptiness of life that we need to realize and deal with too. Those empty buildings I saw today, have stood for a long time without any human interaction. What does that do? A building that is left unattended for a long period develops this strange process of decay, both outward and inward. Sometimes it is noticeable from a distance but on closer inspection you can see inside – dust bunnies, dirt, filth and grime. No doubt anyone who does rent one of these premises is going to need to factor in a major clean up.

2 Timothy 2v20-21 “In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble. If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work.”

So, while Jesus is fixing heaven for the saints, we too have a responsibility. Part of that responsibility is to cleanse our lives, to search our hearts, and to purify ourselves so that we no longer resemble those derelict buildings, fading and decaying every day. But coming to the realization that Christ desires we walk in such a way that our lives reflect His glory, then we can see through His lens and identify those who are in the same need we found ourselves in until He cleansed and purified us.

It would be a great exercise to take a moment to reflect on our own lives and establish within our own vessels, what is gold, what is silver, do I have any wood and clay laying around that needs to be burned up? If I do…Lord show me, so that I can be an instrument for noble purposes. Burn up what needs to go, clean this house Lord!

Give us the courage to share with others in need today. Lord place at least one person across our path that we can see through your lens of their need for you.

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God Gave Me You

Just finished listening to a song by Dave Barnes – God Gave Me You (for the ups and downs), and as I listened to the lyrics it dawned on me that for sure some people are put across our path by the Lord for a specific reason, be it for good or bad. Ah how can I say God would use another person for something bad? That isn’t entirely correct, so let me elaborate.

How often have you been full of the joys of spring, and someone comes into your life and throws a curve ball that sends you into a tailspin? Not sure if anyone can relate but sometimes it feels like that happens often, and if that is the case then it’s a good time to stop whatever you are doing and take stock of life and the journey you are on with the anticipation of making a few challenging changes. I have recently done this, by stepping back from the daily life issues to focus on the bigger picture in the background known as “my life”, and it has been a great time for me to reflect, and make necessary adjustments, asking myself “what is my purpose, why am I here, where am I headed?”

A friendship is something precious and cherished because of the time it takes to cultivate and invest in a life. It also creates a catalyst whereby you are willing to “unzip” your inner most being, and allow your life to become vulnerable in the hope that the same reciprocal action will meet you in that moment, and so the bond and strength of the relationship is further fortified. But what occurs when that doesn’t happen? Tough question to answer, because many relationships are perhaps not yet on that level where that type of depth can be achieved for one reason or the other. But when there is a level of commitment that has the freedom to express the good the bad and the ugly, then it is that relationship that will be strengthened. Add to it the love of Christ, and the bond of peace then you have secured a friendship that is not easily broken.

I am constantly mindful that my brothers and sisters here on earth will be my eternal family when the time comes for us to enter into the life we look forward to, being in the presence of the Lord. Can you imagine if as a corporate body we walked in humility, peace and forgiveness with each other how effective the church would be? When there are divisions and strife, victory is difficult to attain, and so it comes down to personal choices. Do we choose to walk in humility, right or wrong, seeking the heart of our fellow brothers and sisters, or do we take up a defensive position and guard the state of our hearts and minds?

Can I be honest here? One of the hardest things I have experienced in my walk with the Lord has been to walk in forgiveness, even when I know I am right! But if I don’t do that, then I am holding that person captive without them even knowing. So, this is part of the ups and downs of being a Christian and making every attempt to live a life that is worthy of the calling He has placed on each of us. If any of us were to be brutally honest, we would agree that throughout the course of our life we have been offended, hurt, rebuked, etc., and it is in that moment we have a choice to make, in how we respond, either negatively or positively…godly or from a position of whatever the state of mind is at that time, and usually when our mind is involved it will be from a place of wanting to retaliate. That for me has been a wonderful barometer – if I feel anger rising up inside of me, and my thoughts degenerate then the Lord is far removed from the resolution, however, if I find myself crying out to the Lord for the other party, with sincerity, for His will to be done, and whether I am right or wrong, that the bond of peace be kept, then I know which voice to listen to, which option to pick, which road to proceed on.

At the end of the day, it really isn’t about being right or wrong, nor is it about being arrogantly justified – but rather, that Christ is revealed in that moment, and that peace is embraced with the intent to grow closer to the Lord – and not that we seek to claim “an eye for an eye”, but allow grace and mercy to be evident.

I am so thankful that the Lord gave us His word, and showed us the way forward, through the storms of life, and that we are loved by Him more than we will ever be able to understand.


When Life goes from Bad to Worse

“I was pretty sure I understood what God was asking me to do. I was obedient. I took the next steps…but now I’m wondering if I got it all wrong. Instead of things going right they seem to be getting worse!”

Sound familiar? We think we understand what God is asking of us, but the further we go down that road the bumpier it gets. We start to wonder…to question…to doubt…and maybe even conclude we missed it. The clearness of the initial message gets cloudy and somehow lost in the realities of life…some of them quite difficult.

There is a principle found in chapter 5 of Exodus that might help our perspective. Moses heard correctly. He knew what he was supposed to do, and he did it. At first things went well…the Israelite leaders listened and believed. So far so good! With that affirmation energizing him, he was off to the next victory… presenting his request to Pharaoh and watching God grant his request.

Didn’t happen. In fact things got ugly rather quickly. Pharaoh didn’t just refuse; he actually decided to punish them for even asking. It definitely went from bad to worse! So Moses came back to God with a series of questions and doubts. “You made a promise God…what happened?”

You may have been there…or might be there right now. You thought you heard correctly, you obeyed the best you knew…but the seeming promise has not been fulfilled. What happened?

One of the things that happened is the principle we can draw out of Exodus 5 and 6. We can call it the principle of fulfillment and judgment. It seems that quite often God is working out a carefully balanced plan involving both fulfillments…the promises he has made for the good of his people, and judgment…the promises he has made for those who disobey.

Moses, Aaron and the Israelite leaders were totally focused on the promise God had made to them. When that was not the immediate outcome, they began to question. But God had another side to the whole scenario. He was also bringing judgment on those who had exploited his people. Early on in the process, the Egyptians saw things as going well for them, and Israel saw just the opposite. But the process was not done. God was balancing the promise of victory for Israel and the promise of judgment for Egypt.

As it turns out, we don’t usually know all the players in our scenarios with God. We don’t know whom he is intending to bless with his promises of victory and whom he may be judging because of their disobedience. So when we see things only from our personal perspective, we can easily conclude that we didn’t hear God correctly or that he just isn’t that interested in our situation. But there is always a larger perspective…the other side, so to speak…what God is orchestrating in the larger scheme of things for the proper fulfillment of his promises of direction for us, and what he is orchestrating to bring his judgment where necessary.

Take heart! God’s perspective is from a little higher vantage point than ours. He can see the whole picture at once, so trusting his timing is probably more productive than relying on our own!

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He Sees You!

It’s quite strange how life comes at us with interesting situations that we can’t figure out or understand, and proceed to think we are the only ones going through whatever it is that is troubling us. The good news is that even when people around us fail, when systems no longer work, and when we are at our weakest moment in life, there is one who sees, who knows our name, and desires His best for us.

Every day we see dreadful things happening on the news, not sure why they even call it news because it is 90% bad most of the time. This week a plane took off from Johannesburg in South Africa, destined for Tripoli – it crashed on landing and all but one child survived.

On Wednesday this week here in Temecula California, a friend of ours was fatally shot and killed in front of his family. How do you deal with this? Where do you go? How do you muster up the strength to face another minute?

You see these events happening every day and wonder “why does this happen like that”. Well, there are no logical answers. All I know for a fact is that without trusting and believing in the Lord – life really is filled with emptiness and sorrow. Have you ever wondered how you would handle that fateful phone call, or knock on the door? I know that without God in my life, I would not respond well, and would be a hopeless individual offering no sense of peace or hope in a desperate situation. Strange that we are living in times that people think there is no need for a Savior, and that talent, skill and possession will be enough to conquer any eventuality that will come along.

In the lyrics to the song above, the encouragement is that “He sees YOU! He knows YOUR name” and He wants to be intimately connected to your life. Especially the times we are living in, how can anyone not trust in the Lord for peace, for provision, for hope and joy?

I sometimes think it is an honor to face challenges, because one of two things will happen – either you will double over and fold in a heap of anguish and despair, or you will look the challenge right in the face and commandingly say “BRING IT ON”. When those difficulties come, be encouraged, and know that you don’t have to face them alone, and that there is nothing new under the ‘Son’ and that He will give strength and provide a way for victory.

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Do Our Children Need Prayer?

Nancy and I look at our daughters and see how the enemy is unrelenting, and his desire is to take them away from serving the Lord. Seeing the seriousness in all of this, we came to the conclusion today that above every other need within a family, prayer is critical for survival.

How many of us had a road map or handbook describing in detail how to be perfect parents, leading and guiding our children in such a way that they model our lives and that of the Lord as they learn to navigate their futures?

There are multitudes of books and suggestions and motivational speakers out there that will offer amazing techniques and tips to be wonderful parents, and to hopefully have children that turn out to be replicas of angels, but the reality is, each household has challenges that are unlike techniques and bullet points of perfection.

Imagine someone knocking on your front door and you open the door and they hand you a check for one hundred million dollars! Would you accept it and set to work on sharing your new found wealth, or would you slam the door closed and shun not only the gift but the giver?

Peter said to the lame man who would beg at the gates of the temple, “Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk”. Acts 3v6

Today we know how hard life is. There are homes that are in dire need of the Lord. Some parents are struggling beyond measure and have nowhere to turn. Others have one spouse serving the Lord, and the other in the world. Others yet, are raising their children alone, and having to hold down their job, run a home, and be a mother and father.

As believers, the Lord has graciously equipped us with the ability to cry out to Him, to pray, and seek His face. Many of us do this for our own lives consistently, and the Lord is merciful in responding.

What if we were to shift our prayer focus away from our own lack, our own needs, and our own struggles, and prefer to bring someone navigating a parental nightmare before the Lord?

Without a doubt we could all submit at least one family, one mother, one father, one child in need of the Lord’s touch, and blessing in their lives.

Nancy and I want to take this opportunity in this discussion thread to open the group to such a time of prayer.

If you are experiencing one of the many storms of life, and it just so happens that your child is at the center of this storm, would you allow us to partner with you in prayer? We are by no means asking for details, but want to step forward into your life and bring your need before Christ. Be it for an attitude shift, healing, salvation…we believe that in Jesus name all things are possible.

There are five areas of prayer covering for your child that we would like to partner with you;

  1. Purity: Pray for purity for your children and for their future spouses.
  2. Relationships: That our children will develop strong relationships with Christ.
  3. Protection: Pray for physical, spiritual and emotional protection over their lives.
  4. Personal Weaknesses: Every child has struggles. Pray that God will shape weakness into strength.
  5. Thanks: Each child God blessed us parents with is unique. We thank God for these special qualities all our children have and that Christ would continue to develop these characteristics in our children.

What we are asking for is if you are comfortable with us partnering with you in prayer, we want to set aside time during each week, as names and needs are submitted to pray, to seek the Lord, and to cry out to Him for our children. For this to happen, we need you to respond via email, all we need is your name, and your child’s name.

Send us an email to this address:

This generation is in the race for their lives, and we are handing off the baton to them, so that they can continue to run, and end well. There is no age limit, and remember that God loves our children more than we will ever know or understand and what a glorious honor we have to bring each one before the Lord in prayer, and watch from a far how He will transform their lives!